I hate seeing couples that are together and happy and love each other. Maybe it’s because I’m bitter, maybe it’s because I’m hurt, and maybe… it’s because I feel like I’m not good enough. Maybe It’s because I feel like I don’t deserve someone to Love me that way, and maybe… maybe I’m scared. Because getting Love like that, the real kind, the kind you see in movies and on TV, the kind you barely believe exists because it’s so… intoxicating, getting Love like that requires giving Love like that. Maybe I’m scared to give my heart away because I’ve given it so many times, and watched so many people walk away with it, that getting it broken again might be too painful for me to even bare. Then again, who knows? Love usually arrives when you least expect it right? Maybe. If so, get here soon, I’m tired of spending nights alone with just my thoughts.
Then again I should probably sleep, nights like this,