I have so much things to say, but i don't know where to start.
haiy, today such an fxcking day . after what i actually heard from my friend's .
i was cryingg after i heard what they said . haiy . i realie thought u were not that kind of person , i wanted to be serious with u . but wuat the fuck? u actually have the intention to used me . pukihmak!i hate u . yesterdae was our aniversary of one month . i think it should end up soon . i think i am going to listen whatever my friends tells me . i am going to break with u , hafiz bin khamzah . i am so dissapointed in u . i know u are still in cambodia . once u reach singapore i guess i am going to let u know . all u promises and blabla can put it aside .all were BULLSHITS . no used sheding tears fer u . :'(


As much as I want to pour out all my feelings by writing it all down here, I am sure there is still some anonymous visitors reading even though the number of visitors may be lesser than it was before. I always wish that i am able to write every single thing that's going through my head without watching what i say. Every single thing that makes me feel upset about. Every single thing that disappoint me so much. Especially when there is just no one there listening. I don't really need people to sit down by my side and lend me their ears and their shoulder for me to cry on or a tight hug for me to cool myself down. What upset me most is that the people that i was hoping that they'd listen to me is just not there to cheer me up and tell me that things will definitely be alright even though i know that it will never be. They were never there. That is what that disappoint me so much. Maybe it's true, the person you love most will be the one who will hurt you the most. Always. I just couldn't describe how this feel because it just hurts so much that it seems like something just pierced through my heart. It hurts so bad and the worst part of it all, you don't know how it feels. You never knew. How long this will last, i'm unsure myself. I'm tired.. I'm tired of every single thing that's happening around me that i just feel like giving up. I just hope that you'd believe that karma do happen. Whatever that happens to me, will definitely get back to you one fine day.

And for that, i finally realise that i've made the biggest mistake ever. And that's you. Meeting you was A MISTAKE. It may take me a really long time to forget everything about us, but you know I regretted it. I regretted giving you my heart. I regretted EVERYTHING about us.




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